John Wayne defined courage as "being scared as hell but saddling up anyway." Greg and I would agree with that definition. He bravely went through a horrible, heartbreaking battle. Greg wanted to live and he fought to the very last breath. As many of you know, not only did he get to see his beloved FSU team play again, he went out to the dove field not once more - but twice. He relished life and lived it to the fullest. Only death could stop him. How I wish we could have beat that cancer.
Today, October 30th marks a year now since he was forced to leave us. To say he is missed would be a gross understatement. But his presence is felt through uncanny coincidences and small miracles that even his son John recognizes as "Daddy must have done that!" A perfect first snowfall, "Danger Zone" (his favorite song of all time) played by the FSU marching band at his first game and the kitten John wanted so desperately who literally dropped into our lives. One that happens to snore and has a furry smile on his belly. These are just a few of the sweet occurrences that I do believe Greg sends our way.
Our lives are nothing like what he left us with. John and I live in different times altogether. We will return home to Pensacola next year and resume where we left off. It was good for me to take advantage of the job opportunity in Georgia even though I got laid off again. Being in a different city and a different house is helping me to catch my breath after everything that happened last year.
Greg's memorial park was put on hold for economical reasons by the city. I have been assured it will happen. The city is awaiting a final check from FEMA which will free up the funds to build the infrastructure. This park is a promise to Greg that I will keep.
Nana Grebe taught me the meaning of "unconditional love" and I learned "compassion and love" from Greg. This wonderful family Greg was blessed with exemplifies both. He truly felt this love and relied on it. I am honored to be a part of it.
My favorite thought on Greg came in a card of condolence. "I know Greg had a lot of friends but he always made me feel like I was his best friend" What a privilege to have known and be loved by him.
-Tammy
